Music is a Story

Music is a story. 

The story of our past,

Anticipated future,

Or what we hope will last. 

Sometimes a melody 

Takes me back to childhood

When magic was alive 

When fairies understood. 

When I used to be a pirate 

Sailing the seven seas

I was the queen of youth

In all her majesty. 

Sometimes a certain lyric

Makes me yearn for things to come

Wondering if love feels like

They say it in the the songs.

It makes me wish and dream 

And gently guard my heart

And hope the knife of life

Won't cut it all apart.

Sometimes music takes me

Out of the past or what's ahead

And causes me to live inside

This precious "now" instead. 

It frees me from the worries

The fears can disappear 

In one drift of harmony 

And all the darkness clears. 

Music is a story

Yours and mine and theirs.

All strung together in a thought

Of human nature's cares. 

Small and Simple

I'm a speck in the spectrum of this wide unknown world. 

Just a small, unsure, unknown, unusual girl. 

I'm clumsy and awkward and a little insane. 

I like painting and tacos and smelling the rain. 

I'm no phenomenon, I'm no superstar

But, I believe I can take my dreams far. 

It's the simple things that make the world go round. 

It's love that helps the lost be found. 

One tiny pebble, still ripples the pond

A smile can mean the world to someone. 

 It's the little kind acts we make everyday 

That in the end, make lasting change.

What Worlds Are Made Of

I'm just one little person in a not so little world. 

I want to make a difference, but there's much I've yet to learn. 

There are billions of people, all across the earth. 

What part do I play in it all? Must I prove my worth? 

All these different lives, each a story of their own.

Separate, yet so close. The same and yet unknown. 

The universe is grand, expanding with no end. 

It's hard for me to fathom, strange to comprehend. 

Even though we may feel small in this infinite expanse, 

We can change each other's worlds, we can take a chance.

Take each chance to show your love, for that is the stuff, 

That changes worlds and it is what all worlds are made of. 

Making the Most of the Moment

Ok guys. Pep talk moment!! 

So, I've been thinking lately about what it means to be yourself, and be confident. Confidence has been something I've struggled with, but all my life I think I have been thinking of it in the wrong way. I've been thinking of it in terms of the future. For example: I'll be able to be confident when I have___. I will be comfortable once I get ___. I will be happy once I become ___.
It's nice to have goals and aspirations, but if you are always living in the future, you'll never be able to enjoy the beauty of what is happening RIGHT NOW! 

So! Stop worrying about what could be, because the only way to become your best is to be your best right now! 

Maybe eventually after taking advantage of each moment, we will stop wasting time worrying about what others think of us. 

We can't change the past, we don't know the future, so let's make the most of the present moment.

That being said, in order to live and enjoy the present moment, we need to stop worrying about external judgement. Imagine all that we could do if we weren't afraid of being judged! I think we would feel more free and we would stop holding back from accomplishing our big dreams.

Ok, there's my little rant. :) Don't be afraid to show your double-chin-crazy-weirdo-side ;) ✌😜

I'm Batman!

In the well loved movie "Batman Begins" we are presented with two opposing ideas of justice. Bruce Wayne's Mentor  Ra's al Ghul from The league of shadows expresses his idea of justice as destroying all who commit crime and bestowing the deepest forms of punishment for all who disobey the law. He claims to fight for complete peace and harmony and wishes to destroy Gotham from the inside out through fear.

On the other hand we have Batman who gives his all for justice, but he has hope in the people. He still sees good in the City of Gotham and tries to defend it, despite the high criminal activity. His manifestation of justice is more brought out through punishment of the bad, but not destruction. He never directly kills the villains. He strives to protect the good people in the city and fights to avenge His parents while he strikes fear into those who are motivated by greed and selfishness. He builds from the inside out. One person at a time.

So we're are presented with a question:

 If a people are corrupt, would it be better to destroy them to bring about complete peace and rebuild a more controlled society where people are more maintained and safe, or would it be better to have have hope in the people, even though they are fallen, still punishing the bad, but letting them remain - as good is promoted and more freedom is exercised? It is almost a question of safety and status versus freedom and hope.

We are presented with this question throughout history. People sacrifice their freedoms for "safety" or for their twisted idea of freedom -which is being able to do whatever they want. It is my belief that true freedom is obtained when worked for. The true American Dream is that we work in order to prosper. People are losing that- they are leaning more towards temporary safety and pleasure rather than lasting Liberty.

 This happens in our choices of government, and in our personal lives everyday. 

I think it's time to be like Batman. We need to strive for justice- but also hope. 

Don't give up on humanity yet! There are many good people who still remain. 

You can be one of them! Create justice inside yourself by getting rid of the things that rob you from try liberty and joy. Whether it be a damaged relationship, a mental disorder, or just a weakness that you want to overcome. Of course these things take time to heal, but just like Batman does with Gotham, you can start from the inside out. 

Son Rise

I'm The sun rises after the storm

And lights each tip of grass

The blooming flowers touched with dew

Shine like beads of glass

The garden silent, still, waiting.

The whisper of the wind

Seems to speak of hope and life

Brighter then it's been.

Quietly a woman weeps

For a friend she's lost.

Illuminated by the morning sun

Toward the tomb she walks.

She approaches the memorial

But to her great despair

The tomb is wholly empty

But for linen laying there.

Somebody approaches, 

The woman asks him where

They have laid her Lord

Her friend who wasn't there.

The man looks toward the woman

With love and sympathy 

Quietly he whispers 

He says to her, "Mary."

Such power in a word

Such meaning in one name

"Master!" She replies

For it is He, the same.

She reaches out her hand

"Touch me not," he says,

"I have yet to go unto

My Father in Heaven."

Such radiance in a smile

Such love in just one glance.

The victory o'er the grave was won

Eternity advanced.

Mary, filled with newfound grace

Thanks him with her eyes.

She has witnessed joyfully 

The hope of the Son rise.

Goals to Leave Behind the Past and Grasp the Present

(So I thought would right down some of my goals to have a more meaningful life- of course it will take me a while to get there, but someday I hope I will :) )

I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired. I'm done with being selfish and angry. I'm fed up with fear and doubt and anxiety. 

I'm moving on. 

I'm leaving my fear at the feet of Jesus and picking up trust. I'm going to stop dwelling on yesterday and start living today.  I am more than my problems. God is more than my problems. Together, we'll smash the walls of restriction, and build a palace of peace. I'm leaving behind who I was and becoming who I really am.  Strong. Joyful. Determined. Faithful. Obedient. Compassionate. Wise. 

Because beating myself up only hurts me more, I'm going to stop letting shame chain me, and start letting grace free me. 

The worth of souls is great in the sight of God. I want the worth of each soul to be great in my eyes too. I want to take off the mask of misunderstanding and see people as they really are. Good, powerful spirits, with unique gifts and talents. I want to see differences as marks of beauty. I'm tired of caring about what other people think of me. I want to live the right way, and be free to be myself.

The world says it's not ok to look weird. The world says you shouldn't dare to be vulnerable, but I'm tired of hiding. I'm  sick of being cooped up in a little box of frigtened emotions. I'm ready to spread my wings and take flight with divinity. 

If I say somethings  stupid, who cares? If I embarrass myself, who cares? If I mess up, make a mistake, I'm not going to let that cripple me like I've done in the past. I'm moving on from the past, and looking forward to the future. Cherishing every learning opportunity. Being excited just about life. Not being afraid to dance, sing, and laugh. Loving with my whole heart, for it is worth it. I'm stepping out of sadness and jumping into joy. 

What a beautiful day to live!